I woke up with my head down on my desk four different times the past four nights. I have been pouring through videos and texts on how to install squeeze pages, google analytics, update three plug ins… In the meantime I have been doing my best at keeping my employer happy during the day, which seems to pour over into my nights too. “Is it worth it?” my colleague asked me in the morning. Oh yeah it is worth it. You see I am looking at something they don’t understand, and may never understand. I have a big WHY in my head and in my life. That is the reason for the late nights and trying to learn what seems to be a whole new foreign language.
Setting out to do something I have never tried was so exciting in the beginning but the edge wore off quickly. There were so many things to learn and so many decisions to be made. Once the edge is gone it is easy to throw in the towel and walk away. There have been so many times that I have done that before on other projects. It would have been easy to do it again here. Except for that big WHY. Why am I doing this? Well for now that is between me and those that need to know but it is a bit WHY and one that gets me so pumped up and wanting to keep moving on that I get that edge back every time I think about it.
This 30 day Quick Start Challenge that I took on was a Godsend. It pushed my boundaries to the scary level more than once. I have fallen behind but my WHY keeps me determined to finish the tasks even if it is outside of the 30 days. One of the things it has taught me is you don’t have to be perfect you just have to keep moving and moving I am. A little slower than most of the others that started this but moving none the less. Is it worth it? Well someday I am going to flip this paradigm I am in and instead of 18 hours of work and 7 hours of rest it is going to be the other way around, and now I can see how that won’t take as long as I always feared.